34th Post 28 Feb 2008

I was really affected by the blog.....at first i was angry....then my logical mind starting thinking.....what is the facts and lies in his blog....i discovered it.....the sms part....i know she will be thinking why i was quiet in the morning....well it was due to the fact that i was thinking of how to break the news abt the blog to her as nice as i can....i dont want to upset her and spoil her mood....after i broke the news to her so assured me that it was a lie......what a fool i am to even start to have doubt in her.....i'm sorry dear.....maybe it was that i was very scare of getting hurt again.....that pain is horrible......he is smart.....he knows that hurting me directly is very hard so he used her as an arrow....well it worked.....it hurted me a lot not cos of that sms.....but cos i started to even have doubt in her.......after sending her to work i went home thinking how stupid i was to be thinking that way.......her reassuring settled my heart again when she called and told me she was going for breakfast......so sweet of her.....i know that no matter how i break the news to her she will be affected.....but she still tried to show me a smiling face and hid her pain.....that part of her character is the same as me......noon came and i had to go work.......when she was free she would call me.....hearing her voice cheers me up all day.....no matter how tired i am.too bad i had ended working till almost 7 and cant fetch her again......tmr dont know if i can make it.....only thing i know now is tmr night i need to go taka after ten for work.maybe in the afternoon also need to go work.....it will be a super long night tmr....think by the time i reach home she should be sound asleep.....new stuff will need more time to fix......sian......today afternoon already run around SG liao.....from home to kaki bukit then to SIR then to Martin Rd then to Bukit Panjang and back to my store....it's not xiong but sian....time consuming.....wanted to spend more time with her but no choice one that is working life.....going to get more busy next month....but i will still try to find more time to spend with her.Sat dont know will kenna recall a not....if not go fishing with her.....go there feed mosquito with me....hehe.....Even tonight also never spend much time with her cos had to do ginny's laptops and it took me a few hours......by then i was irritated by the problems and my laptop also got problem....super irritated and sian till i didnt notice i rise my voice at her......she's angry i know......but i really didnt know i rise my voice....it's not a good excuse but it is the truth.....but she was happy when i told her to go sleep at 11...cos she knew i read her blog and care abt her....after she slept i still had to do my work till now then free....stupid lappy still got problems....nevermind la leave it for another day....i got enough things to worry abt today liao.......no wonder mood so bad till i didnt notice....subconscience pressure on myself again.....The most interesting thing was this.....the pics used on his blog were taken from Miss S but she doesnt know him.....she even place the comment on my cbox to let me know......lol.....pathetic let people find out......think he is paiseh now...dont know who neutral is but this person is interesting.......thanks again william for your comment....hehe.....i agree with you....lolwell the cbox is for all to comment, good or bad i will read......if you anyhow comment and let people shoot also not my issue.......all i can say is........look at both side of a page and understand before you start to comment.....but neutral reminds me of him.....got same character....i was like that last time......oh long long time ago in sec school.....now more of a dont care guy....i only care for my family, crystal, my career and my friends now.These factors are what made me today....Crystal asked me one qns today and i replied her Yes without thinking.....the qns was do you understand yourself.....
When you can understand and accept others then you will learn to understand yourself.One thing that me and Alex think the same is that knowing ourselves is the hardest thing to do.
I wonder which other interesting characters will appear on my blog tmr.....at least it keeps me interested.....lol......dear is sleeping and smiling again.....looks so sweet that it melts my heart.....hope i can bring her more happiness in the future.....guess i have to work harder so that i can solve her problems faster.....dear when you get your pay no need to give me a treat k....just kiss is all i need