129th Post 21 Feb 12

We often get hurt the most by people whom we love most.

We often dont cherish things until we lost them

To be love is easier than loving someone.

We had breakfast today with her mum.... it was nice to see her although it will be the last.... i was happy she smiled although i know it was not meant for me. It was enough to cheer me up.

she and her mum cleared 2 car loads of stuffs from our room........ after so many years of living with her, my room is finally empty, so empty that it scares me..... i cant see her blanket, her clothes, her stuff...... i feel so empty now. The only thing that is still here is her organ and the pic we took at my sis's wedding..... really really miss her...... The emptiness is unbearable.

It took her yrs to fill it up but only 1 day to clear it all.

It's a day filled with happiness and sadness...i'm shattered again.

We met one of her friends and i was introduced as a friend and she told her friend she had a french bf.... It was like a stab in the heart.... We havent even file the divorce.

She told me she didnt wrote married on her status when she joined SQ and only her batchies knew me. Another blow........ So her whole world thinks diff of her.... those who know thinks i am the one who did her wrong, i am the scapegoat.

She tried to anull the marriage but i guess she cant and now she is trying for deed of separation....

I found out to divorce u needed to be married 3 yrs min.

Why did she want to divorce so fast i didnt ask, i guess maybe the bf told her too?

The crystal i know falls in love fast and ignores everything for the first 3 months..... after that puppy love period the problems will arise and so far she normally doesnt try to fix it much and leaves.

I think when she married me she was thinking , hey i'm not pretty since someone wants me why not.

Now that she is pretty and has a prestious job she is being wooed by lots and wants to leave me stating she doesnt love me anymore. Was it planned or what ???

The one who truely loves her is here but she doesnt cherish him and she destroys him in the fastest way. To be love is bless and to love someone is painful.

no quarrels no signs of anything and next...... i want a divorce....there wasnt even a talk.

I am not trying to sound pitiful or anything. This blog is just for me to spill my guts and thoughts.

Even now the main worry i have is that she might get hurt again. I have been hurt by her many times in the same way so i know i can handle it but for her i cant bear to know she is sad or hurt.

She told me her current bf was hurt by my ex last time and got a rebound gf.now the rebound doesnt want to give him a easy life. That states a lot abt him, he went to see a shrink after the first.

No gal wont want revenge unless what he did was unforgivable.

Any normal person had to see a shrink after going through so much pain of losing their gf will NEVER want another person to go through the pain they did. That is a fact.

So now he has reverse his role, instead of the victim he is now the villian.
He does know she was married and yet he still did this.

Dear u did this to me and he could do the same to u. What comes around goes around.

He managed to get a Prized SQ gal who so happened to be married..... what makes u think he will not try for another who is single and younger......can u guarante he wont.

Any proper gentleman will not woo 3 type of gals.
1. married
2.friends' wife
3.knowing the gal is having normal problems with their bf

This is the untold code of the gentleman.

In chinese we always say ... quan(4) hao bu quan(4) li
always try to help the couple get together and not ask them to separate.

In our yrs of being together i have always been honest, faithful and true to u regardless of what wrong u did, i have always forgive and forget.

I accepted who u are and love u but u didnt do the same. U were always looking higher, aiming for better. U are never satify with what u have obtain.

U know what i say is always honest and true, that's why u know i am right.

Reality is cruel i learnt that from u. If he really is a good person i wouldnt bother stopping u.

Dear u really need to grow in the proper direction.

After getting hurt in terms of emotion,money or physical so many times, u are still going in the same direction, shouldnt u change it.

U have hurt me emotionally so many times and in the end i still remain true and by ur side, sheltering u from anything. I guess i was the one who spoiled u, always letting u have ur way, giving in to u and doing what u want me to do.

I have said too much again.... i am too emotional again. I am still hurting..........I am just human