127th Post 21 Feb 12

After these few days, i have started to calm down.

There is only 1 question i have, what is the true reason u left me??

when we hugged and u told me u had slept with 6 other guys, i felt a partial lie....

She disappear for a few days and told me she wanted a divorce..... pain

2 days later she told me she really has a bf

i wont say i should have or regret etc etc etc......

I am disappointed that we cant talk abt the divorce first.
The bf thing was an added blow.

Dear if u were in my shoes how would u feel?? Would u be able to let go if i told u that i want to divorce u and have a gf the next day??

In ur blog u didnt commented on we will getting divorce..... why is that?? to act innocent and pure or to hide the truth or cos u dont want to let me know the true reason u are leaving me?

I still dont really understand why u want to leave me stating it was for my good. Was it cos u had contracted something or was it cos u had a one night stand and felt quilty that u cant face me anymore or what ???

I know i neglected u during dec to jan due to work and that was the period u had changed.

When the first time u hurted me back than, the same thing happened. I freaked out.

This time is the same but after calming down i will still say the same thing

I love u more than i love myself and i will always love u and be here for u.

I will still stand by the wedding vows i took.

U know me enough to know that no matter what u do nothing will change that.

I also believe u accepted Romain after u reach abu dabui.

This is the u who never change. Thinking but not talking abt problems we face. How can any relation improve if no one makes a point to speak up.

After reading ur blog my heart hurts more. I havent read ur blog for a really long time thinking u will talk to me abt anything and any problems so that our relationship can grow further.

This i regret..... hai, when u posted a french guy wanted to date u on Christmas should have been the key point, but i was too busy and tired to read ur FB to see that. I only saw some but not all of ur posts.

Dont worry i wont ask u to return to me anymore, that is pointless as u will not do it.
I will move on and improve so that if fate allows, we can hopefully date and get marry again, this is i can give u security and true happiness but if fate and destiny prove otherwise so be it as long as u can get the happiness that i cant give u.

I want to thank u for letting me love u and u for loving me, for teaching me so many things and for ur gifts, i am also glad that i was able to give u some good memories.

If u forgot how difficult it was for us to be together than u should read ur blog. Starting from our first meeting and the date i declared my love for u on KOGS 24th may 06.

i guess heaven is toying with the 2 of us. Both still not mature enough and building their careers leading to the many problems. It feels now like we have become people of different classes, upper (U) and lower (me). All i will do now is to let u go to search for greener pastures, hoping u are forever happy and never getting hurt.

I dont know if i can fall in love again with others or if i can totally forget u but i know this now

I still love u