I think I have given up on relations.

Not because I don't believe in love but because I feel it is something I don't deserve.

Thanks jean for trying to cheer and movtitive me, although I don't know what to movtitive for.

Confidence and pride is totally gone, self belief and trust in people...... Below Negative

I don't know how to look forward for now. All I know is trying to make it pass each day.

Wish u the happiness u are looking for. Hope I am wrong totally and u can truly settle ur heart.

Gal understand urself can, I hope u won't toy with another and get hurt again. One Alex and mark and Alan is already the limit. So far I'm the only one who isn't giving u that type of problems.

If I don't understand urself how can u find true happiness. How long do u want to get hurt. I can't protect u anymore or shelter u from harm and hurt. U are on ur own already. I can only lend u my ear and shoulder if u want.

If u really come back I also don't know what to do. Beg everyone for forgiveness and pray it won't happen again or tell u it's too late.

So the obvious answer is hope he is the final one and I am incorrect.

U are the first, who I gave everything, who could make me change for u, who could push me beyond my limits that is how much I love u.

U will never understand it cos u have never love anyone that deeply and thoroughly before.

What u are looking for is not love or to settle down gal.u still want to play around