Crazy talk

In life the hardest things to handle are always people.
Managing and leading is tough.....

A small problem can become big
a big problem can become small as long as u have good PR skills.

I think i have made up my decision, time to have a chat. Have been delaying it for 2 months cos i was badly affect emotional.

I wouldn't say i have recovered nor am i regressing. Currently i am still lost.

Thanks Eliza for checking up on me, i know u are right about what i need right now..... care, attention and love. You diagnosing abt my behaviour is spot on, abt how my emotions and reactions reflect what i actually needed.

Although i dont want to admit it, i know u are spot on.

I really need to stop my habit of saying out what i hold deep in when i get depress or high.

Heard she is doing the same thing as last time again..... let's hope she is not digging her own grave again.

But then old habit die hard..... ke lian.....

Work load has exploded again but surprising i was calm abt it instead of exploding with it..... numb maybe or i did expect this type of things to happen.

Calming accepting it and verifying it with the uppers...... then announcing that due that this i have to stop all work for at least 2 days....... See u give me last min info, i step in to cure it immediately but the side effects are what u have to bear.......

Starting to feel that maybe i am not meant to be loved by others except my family.
Love is a dream told by disney...... there are no happily ever after. Only sadness and heart break.

The only constant in life is time.

I might be doing some crazy decisions abt my life in the months to come, that is something i can foresee coming. Choosing comfort items over future plannings.

I dont foresee falling in love again..... that is but a fairy tail. I dont believe in love, honesty, faithfulness, the marriage vow and anything that has got to do with LOVE.

Dont worry William, i will not use the 7.62 to shoot myself or anyone else during ICT. I am still that sane, but if u really feel that i am behaving weirdly than stop me please. Tell me NO FIRING ...... that phrase should be able to make me stop.

For ippt i dont think anyone can stop me from pushing myself over my body's limit..... just standby the medic just in case. AED plus ice pack should save me...... if all else fails, tell my family i love them, and her too.....lol

Crazy talk...........

Finally finished watching the shrewd wife..... touching and sad..... it didnt end the way i expected...... but the ending reflected how love can hurt someone so badly that no one can cure it.

Sometimes i wonder when is it ever enough. Have been seeing some nice pics with words of wisdoms on them.... maybe next few post i will just upload them.

Sorry Ms E for disturbing u...... I know i shouldnt have done that.

Still considering to delete some contacts in my hp...... people i know i might disturb, people who i have not contacted in ages, people who disappoint me, people who are considered non existence or maybe i should just change my hp no..... been more than 10yrs with this number.......

Life is disappointing..... the best thing is that it is disappointing me more everyday......

I have really lost all my pride and confidence after this incident........ The smallest hint of any gal trying to get friendly with me can send shivers down my spine and send me running........ truly, badly, deeply shattered

No i still dont blame her, or hate her or am angry at her bro..... all the 3 are me..... i blame myself, hate myself and am angry at myself....... sorry.......