Just an update on Mr Mark.......... He was had a fainting spell so he didnt attend court session. The case has been postpone till next friday.
I feel that i have been biased against him..... even if he did it, it must have been a moment's thought. Think of it this way.... he could have lots of "models" in his line of work be it legally or illegally. Think he must had a bit to drink......
Think there was a hint of jealousy in there too.
I betrayed my own way of thinking of always giving people a second chance and look from a 3rd person's view.
Angel.... I can see your POV and i can understand what you are trying to send across to me. Thanks a lot. Have a good time at the countryside. I look forward to your comments when you are back.
I always have this bad habit of worrying for others..........
I may also have been too straight and direct in my posting........ Havent been sleeping well since i started blogging daily.
I was worried she might get sad and endanger her own life while riding and etc. But it seems to sadden me even more daily....... sad songs seems sadder.......... and tears seems to flow easily too.
I did a bad habit just now. i kept staring out of the window again......... what's in my mind only I will know..... but it's not a dangerous thing, dont worry.
Thoughts fly through and feelings floods..........
She had made a couple of bad choices in her life till now but it doesnt mean she might do it again, I should have given her a benefit of a doubt for a while till something happens.
I'm just turn off by her coldness and unattentiveness, and also the way she treats my place.
I think i should change back to my hack care attitude again. That should make me happier for the moment.
Friday, October 16, 2009
Wednesday, October 14, 2009
98th Post 14 Oct 09
I think i havent posted why the quarrel happened.....
The reason..... I wasnt concerned about what happened to her.
My reason.... she told me she will be going holidays with her co workers. But i tot was batam so i didnt sms her. As i knew she will be back on monday so i sms her, but she didnt reply.
What was i to think???
Is that the way to behave in a marriage ??? WTF........
It seems to me that the paper is nothing to her. The .....to have and to hold....till death till us part..... I DO thing means nothing much to her.......
Referring to her blog..... i shall voice out my thinking in words......
1st para....... brother's ROM...... got tell me was yesterday
Dishearted by mine...... you are the one who is doing this...... reflect upon yourself.You choose to do these type of actions. What happen ask yourself.
2nd para......... no longer friends yet he consoles you via facebook...... haha..... old dog old tricks same fool maybe again who knows.
People who backstab him are mentally unsound like that Alex....hmm..... really meh..... I dont think so. You reap what you sow......That's life. Answer for your own actions in life. If he did it, he will have to answer for it. Gain more fame.....of course but more like imfamous.....
3rd para... alot of people want access to read your blog. Mainly 2 reasons........ 1 people who are concerned, 2 people are interested to know how your life will end up(good or bad comment up to individual).
4th para........who is the busy one here....... cant even inform me properly, me being the husband have to read her blog.... what a joke.
Last para..... dont miss me too much..... i wonder for whom it goes to. ME ???? I dont think she will say that after she reads my posting.Why cos she will have a hard time reading and understanding it and me. She will most likely blame me instead on why she needs to do all these.
But let me answer her Qs in case she needs to know. You are in need of money for yourself............... I have never ask you for money even when i am empty. 10K debt cos of who??
Starhub debt cos of who?? Face it, It's the facts.............. The rest of the reasons in need of money i can understand.
I am starting to understand other peoples' POVs (point of view) regarding certain things. Sad but true things......... I can understand clearly why they comment what they comment and why they think so. Really interesting........ that's why love is blind........haha
The reason..... I wasnt concerned about what happened to her.
My reason.... she told me she will be going holidays with her co workers. But i tot was batam so i didnt sms her. As i knew she will be back on monday so i sms her, but she didnt reply.
What was i to think???
Is that the way to behave in a marriage ??? WTF........
It seems to me that the paper is nothing to her. The .....to have and to hold....till death till us part..... I DO thing means nothing much to her.......
Referring to her blog..... i shall voice out my thinking in words......
1st para....... brother's ROM...... got tell me was yesterday
Dishearted by mine...... you are the one who is doing this...... reflect upon yourself.You choose to do these type of actions. What happen ask yourself.
2nd para......... no longer friends yet he consoles you via facebook...... haha..... old dog old tricks same fool maybe again who knows.
People who backstab him are mentally unsound like that Alex....hmm..... really meh..... I dont think so. You reap what you sow......That's life. Answer for your own actions in life. If he did it, he will have to answer for it. Gain more fame.....of course but more like imfamous.....
3rd para... alot of people want access to read your blog. Mainly 2 reasons........ 1 people who are concerned, 2 people are interested to know how your life will end up(good or bad comment up to individual).
4th para........who is the busy one here....... cant even inform me properly, me being the husband have to read her blog.... what a joke.
Last para..... dont miss me too much..... i wonder for whom it goes to. ME ???? I dont think she will say that after she reads my posting.Why cos she will have a hard time reading and understanding it and me. She will most likely blame me instead on why she needs to do all these.
But let me answer her Qs in case she needs to know. You are in need of money for yourself............... I have never ask you for money even when i am empty. 10K debt cos of who??
Starhub debt cos of who?? Face it, It's the facts.............. The rest of the reasons in need of money i can understand.
I am starting to understand other peoples' POVs (point of view) regarding certain things. Sad but true things......... I can understand clearly why they comment what they comment and why they think so. Really interesting........ that's why love is blind........haha
97th Post 14 Oct 09
Thanks for the chat HJ. It was really useful. Happy that things are working out well for you.... jia you in your studies and i'm looking forward to your future home and kid.
Eric 2 more only you must also jia you......
Next........ Got 2 angels in my cbox. Dont worry i know who is the really one angel.
Just to update you since your asked.
He was charged with 5 counts yesterday and he tried to settle it out of court.
Officially today he has become a wanted man.Check Straits times i think should be online too.
I dont know whether should i pity him or pity the ladies or laugh at him....... mixed reactions and feelings included.Hmm......... how .........
To the person with many nicks....jia you. Keep it up. You are getting more entertaining.
My ops manning is here...... standby time.... shooting is confirmed. Ya..... Shoulderaches and bruising included. But hey it's fun.
Business is going to be under changes soon..... Should of looking forward to it but the process is a killer....... long and tiring days ahead but i think it's good cos it will also take my mind of things for a while.
I had a crazy night 2 days back..... I still dont believe that i had 2 plates of rice and after that i had 3 bowl of home made bo bo cha cha and than snacks......hmm....... hungry ghost festival is over....i wonder why.
I'm getting tired..... tired of this relationship which i feel is getting empty.
I ask if she treated me as a husband and she answer Yes. But the feelings and reactions proved otherwise. Her posting hurted me the most..... I can only say i find it crap. What a lousy logic......
I also feel that our roles have changed. I used to be the one working daily but now..... I go to work on the weekends cos she is working. HAHA....... funny right. Work work work work work....why....cos she has debts and bills.
Bills i can understand.....debts....lol..... i dont need to say why. I wont be surprised that end of the day she goes back to her old ways. There is always a possibility.
Her choice of believing who and trust who is weird. She didnt even inform me that her brother's ROM was a few days back. She doesnt show that I am her husband. She used to check my hp in secret but i knew. I had nothing to hide but not her. I dont really care if she feels sad after reading this post, honestly and frankly I am getting numb and dishearted. The event on friday tells me I'm correct in my thinking.
I went against all the advices and may end up i was wrong in not following them but i will only say I DESERVED IT if it happens. But i will not regret it and will do it again if i repeat my life again. I always believe in giving people a second chance. I have given her 3, it is up to her now to pick her road. If she is still so immature in thinking so be it. I'm tired.
Too much said, too much done, too much negative feelings gathering. She never showed that i'm her husband since the quarrel. Honestly i dont really care much anymore. I am starting to protect myself by shutting my heart slowly. When it's closed......lol......Just give me the paper.
I dont think I am totally wrong when I say she doesnt know how to think, why, cos a lot of people agree with me. Sad but true.......
Thanks Jensen for talking with me. I appreciate it a lot.
I still feel sad about talking very loudly to my mum 2 days back. I know she is still upset about it when i apologised.
Sorry Mother
I know she is keeping things from me again. Dont need to tell I can feel. I'm very sensitive to body language and words and actions.
I post for all to see and comment and to judge for themselves. Be it at the end of the day what happens, I stand firm with my decisions and judgements and conscience.
I believe in having a clear conscience and I stand by it.
I have been contempting to remove my ring from my finger recently. I dont know the exact reason but all i can say is that it's a feeling inside. It could also be due to my heart closing and i'm starting to protect myself. Safe Mode On....haha.
Somehow I feel sad and empty. I dont really bother much about what is happening to her recently anymore. The more i read her blog the more i feel upset and disappointed and disheartening.
She told me why she made her blog into invite only. I'm sure a lot of people are interested to know why.
The reason is to stop certain people from posting in her cbox. Other reasons...... i can think of at least 1 be it good or bad. But i can also think of a few reasons why i wasnt invite earlier...... ha sad or happy I really dont know.
I'm also contempting to ignore her topic on msn, too painful to read.
I'm also contempting to change my blog to invite only. The bad thing is I must invite and the cbox will get boring.
The good is she cant read and i wont be causing her more hurt.....hmm..... how any suggestions??
Lost and confused........sad and disheartened.........tired and numb........
Should a guy try and build a career when he is young or should he do it when he has more burdens. Angel can share your view on this ???
That's all for now. See when i will feel like blogging again....... Busy days ahead. It's rare that I will feel i dont want to go to the internet......but recently that has been the case. ha ha ha.............
You are the one whom i love the most and you will be the one whom hurts me the most.
That's Life ............. live while you learn and learn while you live
Eric 2 more only you must also jia you......
Next........ Got 2 angels in my cbox. Dont worry i know who is the really one angel.
Just to update you since your asked.
He was charged with 5 counts yesterday and he tried to settle it out of court.
Officially today he has become a wanted man.Check Straits times i think should be online too.
I dont know whether should i pity him or pity the ladies or laugh at him....... mixed reactions and feelings included.Hmm......... how .........
To the person with many nicks....jia you. Keep it up. You are getting more entertaining.
My ops manning is here...... standby time.... shooting is confirmed. Ya..... Shoulderaches and bruising included. But hey it's fun.
Business is going to be under changes soon..... Should of looking forward to it but the process is a killer....... long and tiring days ahead but i think it's good cos it will also take my mind of things for a while.
I had a crazy night 2 days back..... I still dont believe that i had 2 plates of rice and after that i had 3 bowl of home made bo bo cha cha and than snacks......hmm....... hungry ghost festival is over....i wonder why.
I'm getting tired..... tired of this relationship which i feel is getting empty.
I ask if she treated me as a husband and she answer Yes. But the feelings and reactions proved otherwise. Her posting hurted me the most..... I can only say i find it crap. What a lousy logic......
I also feel that our roles have changed. I used to be the one working daily but now..... I go to work on the weekends cos she is working. HAHA....... funny right. Work work work work work....why....cos she has debts and bills.
Bills i can understand.....debts....lol..... i dont need to say why. I wont be surprised that end of the day she goes back to her old ways. There is always a possibility.
Her choice of believing who and trust who is weird. She didnt even inform me that her brother's ROM was a few days back. She doesnt show that I am her husband. She used to check my hp in secret but i knew. I had nothing to hide but not her. I dont really care if she feels sad after reading this post, honestly and frankly I am getting numb and dishearted. The event on friday tells me I'm correct in my thinking.
I went against all the advices and may end up i was wrong in not following them but i will only say I DESERVED IT if it happens. But i will not regret it and will do it again if i repeat my life again. I always believe in giving people a second chance. I have given her 3, it is up to her now to pick her road. If she is still so immature in thinking so be it. I'm tired.
Too much said, too much done, too much negative feelings gathering. She never showed that i'm her husband since the quarrel. Honestly i dont really care much anymore. I am starting to protect myself by shutting my heart slowly. When it's closed......lol......Just give me the paper.
I dont think I am totally wrong when I say she doesnt know how to think, why, cos a lot of people agree with me. Sad but true.......
Thanks Jensen for talking with me. I appreciate it a lot.
I still feel sad about talking very loudly to my mum 2 days back. I know she is still upset about it when i apologised.
Sorry Mother
I know she is keeping things from me again. Dont need to tell I can feel. I'm very sensitive to body language and words and actions.
I post for all to see and comment and to judge for themselves. Be it at the end of the day what happens, I stand firm with my decisions and judgements and conscience.
I believe in having a clear conscience and I stand by it.
I have been contempting to remove my ring from my finger recently. I dont know the exact reason but all i can say is that it's a feeling inside. It could also be due to my heart closing and i'm starting to protect myself. Safe Mode On....haha.
Somehow I feel sad and empty. I dont really bother much about what is happening to her recently anymore. The more i read her blog the more i feel upset and disappointed and disheartening.
She told me why she made her blog into invite only. I'm sure a lot of people are interested to know why.
The reason is to stop certain people from posting in her cbox. Other reasons...... i can think of at least 1 be it good or bad. But i can also think of a few reasons why i wasnt invite earlier...... ha sad or happy I really dont know.
I'm also contempting to ignore her topic on msn, too painful to read.
I'm also contempting to change my blog to invite only. The bad thing is I must invite and the cbox will get boring.
The good is she cant read and i wont be causing her more hurt.....hmm..... how any suggestions??
Lost and confused........sad and disheartened.........tired and numb........
Should a guy try and build a career when he is young or should he do it when he has more burdens. Angel can share your view on this ???
That's all for now. See when i will feel like blogging again....... Busy days ahead. It's rare that I will feel i dont want to go to the internet......but recently that has been the case. ha ha ha.............
You are the one whom i love the most and you will be the one whom hurts me the most.
That's Life ............. live while you learn and learn while you live
Sunday, October 11, 2009
96th Post 11 Oct 09
Thanks William for the chat that day, it sure is some interesting information.
Bro dont worry, any advice any day is always welcomed and listened to.
By the way....... Monday is my S.C's birthday...... Happy birthday in advance just in case i forgot.... CS dont say i got no heart hor..... btw sorry i forgot to reply your sms....hehe..... Your GPS still with me le.
Cbox is picking up.... jia you.... keep the comments coming the person with many nicks.
Thanks Angel..... dont take it as hit on you lor. Take it as getting to know more friends......haha
I read an interesting article on xin min ri bao yesterday about a Mr Mark ( refer to my history ) whom got sued for molestation by not one but two ladies..... The paper even exposed when the case was filed which was on august 08. It also states that he said that he was the consultant of SPI. But SPI states that it was not the actual case as he was removed 2 yrs back.
My information maybe slightly off cos i have a bad memory....haha. Sure is interesting. The best part was that he had a friend who broke a law and went to jail.
He even wrote a blog for it expressing how he felt and he states that if a person breaks the law he deserves to go to jail.
Ironic........ I wonder if the papers will cover the conclusion......
Anyone can keep me updated please.
How how angel.... share your blog ???
Can ???
Please ???
Back to my life......
Had 2 tiring but short days and 2 long nights of drinking..... shiok for the drinking. Slow but enjoyable.
New guy is killing me..... I can understand that he doesnt know how to carry properly and he is slow. But he is really really fucking blur. Either he is really like that or he is a good actor. Really cant stand him...... feel like "killing" him......I seriously dont understand how he got his diploma.
All these are adding on to my aches and pains especially my backaches. Fuck.......
Today he caused me to strain my lower back and right wrist. Sian.... after 3 months my right wrist is back from injury but he caused it to hurt again.......
Beer and wine..... Cant remember the full name but i remember it was bin 444 only and merlot and 2007. Not too bad.
Anyone in SG who bought the epson tx300f AIO can update me on how to setup the stupid fax properly. The SG online manual and normal manual are all the same teaching the same method.... but the problem is the stupid software setup inside is different........... STUPID
Cant seem to get it to receive fax without manual intervention.
Bro dont worry, any advice any day is always welcomed and listened to.
By the way....... Monday is my S.C's birthday...... Happy birthday in advance just in case i forgot.... CS dont say i got no heart hor..... btw sorry i forgot to reply your sms....hehe..... Your GPS still with me le.
Cbox is picking up.... jia you.... keep the comments coming the person with many nicks.
Thanks Angel..... dont take it as hit on you lor. Take it as getting to know more friends......haha
I read an interesting article on xin min ri bao yesterday about a Mr Mark ( refer to my history ) whom got sued for molestation by not one but two ladies..... The paper even exposed when the case was filed which was on august 08. It also states that he said that he was the consultant of SPI. But SPI states that it was not the actual case as he was removed 2 yrs back.
My information maybe slightly off cos i have a bad memory....haha. Sure is interesting. The best part was that he had a friend who broke a law and went to jail.
He even wrote a blog for it expressing how he felt and he states that if a person breaks the law he deserves to go to jail.
Ironic........ I wonder if the papers will cover the conclusion......
Anyone can keep me updated please.
How how angel.... share your blog ???
Can ???
Please ???
Back to my life......
Had 2 tiring but short days and 2 long nights of drinking..... shiok for the drinking. Slow but enjoyable.
New guy is killing me..... I can understand that he doesnt know how to carry properly and he is slow. But he is really really fucking blur. Either he is really like that or he is a good actor. Really cant stand him...... feel like "killing" him......I seriously dont understand how he got his diploma.
All these are adding on to my aches and pains especially my backaches. Fuck.......
Today he caused me to strain my lower back and right wrist. Sian.... after 3 months my right wrist is back from injury but he caused it to hurt again.......
Beer and wine..... Cant remember the full name but i remember it was bin 444 only and merlot and 2007. Not too bad.
Anyone in SG who bought the epson tx300f AIO can update me on how to setup the stupid fax properly. The SG online manual and normal manual are all the same teaching the same method.... but the problem is the stupid software setup inside is different........... STUPID
Cant seem to get it to receive fax without manual intervention.
Monday, October 5, 2009
95th Post 5 Oct 09
Congrates Corinne on your first birth..... now from hot lady to hot mama liao......
I cant imagine you with the nursing boobs........ hmm..... hot figure....lol
Marilyn you must jia you...... then both of you can go out together and ask your husbands to look after them while you two go shopping.....that should be a sight.......should be very funny.
Think i must have eaten too much durians and become too heaty.....Can feel the pimples coming out.... ouch. Time for more water and herbal teas. Business is starting to heat up again.... Let hope that it will finally warm up and runs smoothly.
I find that i am quite a good person to complain to (listening ears).
Thanks to that certain person for today. You covered my job, thanks again i appreciate it.
But take care of your body too, you are getting on in age.
Tomorrow must round around SG again. I guess the route should be tuas, woodlands, northlink, Toa Payoh, Martin Rd than back...... super long drive again..... i wonder will i hit 300km.....hmm.... I guess it should be around there.Let's hope the weather is the same as today, cool and shiok.
Interesting cbox comments.....hmm....
Thanks angel for the comments, willing to share your blog with me? hehe...... let me see see look look and maybe "hit" on you.....lol
Thanks for reading my blog too.
Cant wait for more comments to happen, wonder which way it will go and how far?
Just updated my website again.... 6hrs of photo editing and htmls..... blurry vision and saw fingers. Hopefully it pays off, but i still find it lousy for now cos i was lazy to edit some of the photos to height 350 pixels. Tiring and troublesome..... Still must spilt 1 pic into 4..... even thinking of it is tiring..... I will just leave it for another long long long long long time.....haha...... lazyyyyy..........
I cant imagine you with the nursing boobs........ hmm..... hot figure....lol
Marilyn you must jia you...... then both of you can go out together and ask your husbands to look after them while you two go shopping.....that should be a sight.......should be very funny.
Think i must have eaten too much durians and become too heaty.....Can feel the pimples coming out.... ouch. Time for more water and herbal teas. Business is starting to heat up again.... Let hope that it will finally warm up and runs smoothly.
I find that i am quite a good person to complain to (listening ears).
Thanks to that certain person for today. You covered my job, thanks again i appreciate it.
But take care of your body too, you are getting on in age.
Tomorrow must round around SG again. I guess the route should be tuas, woodlands, northlink, Toa Payoh, Martin Rd than back...... super long drive again..... i wonder will i hit 300km.....hmm.... I guess it should be around there.Let's hope the weather is the same as today, cool and shiok.
Interesting cbox comments.....hmm....
Thanks angel for the comments, willing to share your blog with me? hehe...... let me see see look look and maybe "hit" on you.....lol
Thanks for reading my blog too.
Cant wait for more comments to happen, wonder which way it will go and how far?
Just updated my website again.... 6hrs of photo editing and htmls..... blurry vision and saw fingers. Hopefully it pays off, but i still find it lousy for now cos i was lazy to edit some of the photos to height 350 pixels. Tiring and troublesome..... Still must spilt 1 pic into 4..... even thinking of it is tiring..... I will just leave it for another long long long long long time.....haha...... lazyyyyy..........
Sunday, October 4, 2009
94th Post 4 Oct 09
Long time never tidy up my room..... super dusty and messy and dirty....
I'm still thinking of throwing away one of the racks. Maybe throw more things away too.
Let's see..... old stuffs, spare stuffs.
Giving away should be clothes, my wardrobe has too many shirts. I guess it's abt time to give them away.
I wonder if i pack now can it last till chinese new year....hmm....... Monday is coming.....boring......
There is still half a day left, let's see if i can completely tidy up my room......chiong
I'm still thinking of throwing away one of the racks. Maybe throw more things away too.
Let's see..... old stuffs, spare stuffs.
Giving away should be clothes, my wardrobe has too many shirts. I guess it's abt time to give them away.
I wonder if i pack now can it last till chinese new year....hmm....... Monday is coming.....boring......
There is still half a day left, let's see if i can completely tidy up my room......chiong
Saturday, October 3, 2009
93th Post 3 Oct 09
Thanks for the care and concern Elvin and William.
Although i am still a bit lost but i think i am starting to walk out towards the light.
The cbox is getting interesting again. Although it is by the same people. Keep it up...
I am starting to understand how to tell if a person who thinks he/she is in a marriage and a person who is really into the marriage.It's a mindset thing. But sad to say the more i know the more disappointed i am. But that's my business.
Finally my chronic left chest pain is gone, i guess it should be due to my sleeping posture. I havent had this type of pain for a few yrs since poly.
Muscle fatique plus bad sleeping posture = chronic pain.....
I am starting to think that being honest is actually a bad thing regardless of the topic.
People like to be sweet talked be it business, love or social. Maybe i should start to tell more twisted truth and see how it goes.
Range is coming soon..... YA~!!!! Fun fun but lots of gunpowder and shoulderache coming along with it. Looking forward to it. I wonder how is my shooting now. Heard that our rifle is shared so must re-zero it......sian.
Although i am still a bit lost but i think i am starting to walk out towards the light.
The cbox is getting interesting again. Although it is by the same people. Keep it up...
I am starting to understand how to tell if a person who thinks he/she is in a marriage and a person who is really into the marriage.It's a mindset thing. But sad to say the more i know the more disappointed i am. But that's my business.
Finally my chronic left chest pain is gone, i guess it should be due to my sleeping posture. I havent had this type of pain for a few yrs since poly.
Muscle fatique plus bad sleeping posture = chronic pain.....
I am starting to think that being honest is actually a bad thing regardless of the topic.
People like to be sweet talked be it business, love or social. Maybe i should start to tell more twisted truth and see how it goes.
Range is coming soon..... YA~!!!! Fun fun but lots of gunpowder and shoulderache coming along with it. Looking forward to it. I wonder how is my shooting now. Heard that our rifle is shared so must re-zero it......sian.
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