88th Post 25 Sept 09

Thank william for the interesting article.

Really getting bored of the cbox.Nothing interesting to read at all.

You need to get more fresh ideas to comment.

Cold war has happened.
I still cant figure out why but i can only think of 2 things.
1. Super bad...dont want to think of that
2. She feels like i never keep her company enough

Let's hope it's the latter...... Sad

She broke her promise again, she promised me that we will always talk abt things.....
Blog also locked, seems like it's going to be over.

What am i to think?

I was angry with her the first few days cos she broke her promise. Till now i have no idea what is going on.

I know she is still ok cos i saw her posting on other forums. Well at least she is ok and that is one thing off my mind.
Should i be disappointed?? Angry?? Sad?? Depress?? I really dont know anymore.
Somehow i feel tired and exhausted.

Guess i should have known when she started to spend money on certain things.

I sure am a good liar, I can tell myself it's just me thinking too much. What a fool.

Had been planning to bring her to orchard road to shop but she was walking. In the end i had nothing to do so i went to work.

Really getting tired..... spasm and back pain for the past month, really think my body is starting to shut down. Who knows I may wake up the next day and be unable to feel my down limps. haha.........
She should be home by now, tired from work. Luckily she can rest tomorrow.

I wonder if it happens again how should i react or think?
Will i be able to do what i had said last time and just let do?
I wonder how long will i take to recover?
How long will it take to fall for another or even will i dare?
Really really tired...........I dont dare to think too much for fear that i might go crazy again.

Where has my confidence gone too? More than 10yrs still dont want to come back to me.......
Sian..............