有時候並不是真的忘記

而是逼自己別再想起那些曾經


Still cant get her out of my mind, i wonder how long will i take or will i even be able to.
Tears will still flow once a while.

I guess my suffering is worth it if she gets happiness.
I can only hope she is happy now.
In the end i am still placing her wishes ahead of mine.

8 months have passed but she still lingers in my dreams and mind. Sometimes it gets to me so badly that i can hardly breathe other times i will break down emotionally.

Guess i am not like most people, i am just to sensitive to emotions.
It takes a lot for me to settle down, thinking and questioning of myself if i can but when i do it is permanent.

I have always placed her first be it in thoughts or behaviour.
Trying never to get angry at her for her actions or behaviour, Let her have the whole bed cos i want her to sleep well, even when i am locked out of the room, i have never scolded her.
But well it means nothing to her. TAKEN FOR GRANTED.
Her lies and deceptions are first class, she has no real close friends but i still cant hate or blame her. Her upbringing is terrible. Till now i think the same.

Sometimes i pity her mum, other times i admire her for being able to bring up 3 kids.
She does a lot of charity work to help in karma but sad to say, it is being undone by her offsprings.

Even when she behaves like a kid, i wonder to myself, is she trying not to stress her kids.
Auntie wo pei fu ni.

Good people are always taken for granted.

All i hope now is that she wont get hurt again............

I still love u and miss you

SILLY ME