82th Post 5 Feb 09

Found out something interesting. Someone needs to reflect about things that happened and are happening.
Sort of feeling sick when it have to be done this way.


Hope i dont pissed her...... she says.


How come most of the time is the other way round? Who is the one who steps down first.


Abt the topic of the bolster......
It's the same as having an object with you for as long as you can remember.
There will be feelings and emotions attached, and the number of years attached to me exceeds the years we were together.


I have never lied and am always straight forward in speech and thoughts. Anyone who knows me knows that.


If for something that small you want to blow your top then i really feel you need to reflect.


There is something i am not happy with and i thought that i was just in the wrong for thinking that way.

You told me you were meeting a cilent near your place but the next day you told me you went dempsey road....... what are you thinking and what you want me to think.

Should i be angry, jealous, pissed, numb or hurt.


If i didn't trust you and i start thinking back, the scene would be the same as Mr AK. Where you said you were working but went out behind my back?


I told myself that it was just me thinking too much. Seriously which guy wont be pissed.

Dont take my easy-going-ness for granted, cause there are limits to it.


How long does it take to reply a sms or send a sms? Hours again........ But did i get angry.



If you think i am slowing you down in life like your "friends" say then feel free to let go.

It takes 2 hands to hold together but one hand to let go.