68th Post 5 June 08

Wonder where....go read back ba.
You didnt think i have another gf......need me to post your sms?
My hp always got people sms me in the middle of the night.Your's dont have meh....are you sure.
I only knew you went outside the room only when you sms me than i knew you walked home, i thought you were outside using your lappy.
So you bought him things cos you wanted to and i having been with you for so long have nothing like that.....what does it show.
If you need me to tell you everything i want than you really need to change.
Did you always need to ask me for a hug?If you say even think yes than this relationship is really over.
So i dont need tell you what i'm doing right, then last time you got angry over that........... hello did you think before you type or you need me to dig out all the nonsense.
I went out to smoke or bathe.....my towel was in the room and i was outside eating mee, did you bother to come out and see.no you didnt.I didnt on the tv louder cos i didnt want to interupt you chatting with your friends.
The reason you bringing up the breakoff is to test me...you think it's fun or a game.....this type of thing nice to test.....very funny right.......shiok hor......Who in the right mind will do that.
I should quote a sms..........If she hurt u so much, thinku should jus slap her in her face tat she's worthless n u dont want her anymore.
Are you normal out of no wonder keep using her and she instead of me and i.From 1st person view become 3rd person view.
If you wanted the relationship to work then stop your nonsense.
You secretly checked my hp before I know that, but i still didnt stop you.Why cos i have nothing to hide from you.There is no trust in me at all.Dont say got cos your actions and words are not showing that.
Of course i wont reply your sms or calls.....if i did would you understand the lesson....you wont and you never did since last time.Dont make me laugh when you say you have learnt your lesson........Break up can say as test.....you think love is a game is it.
Another sms fom you ending like this..... Maybe ur gf will be proud tat u leave your unreasonble gf...
See are you in the correct mind.............
Are you sure i ignored you when you say you wanted a hug, i did hug you,
Every since you know me i have never lost my temper at you or scolded you, yet you are the one who keeps losing your temper.I only keep quiet and blame myself.
If everything is my fault then why tell me you are sorry.
There are thngs i dont wish to type out in order to protect you.
Dont always make it sound like you are the kelian one cos you are not, you have me by your side but all i keep getting is your nonsense which i am getting tired of.
Dont you find that everything is about you only, what you want what you feel what you need.
Did you even start to think of what i need or want.
Did i blame you for working late and turning home late, no i did not so dont make it sould like i did.
You can say i have another gf when return home late then what about yourself.
Everything is you say, can you even think about me.
If we were to change positions would this shit have happened.
You were always my first concern whenever i do things but am i the one on yours.............
If you want me to dig out more shit to help you wake up, i will do it.

67th Post 5 June 08

If you are understanding, you wouldnt have betrayed me the first time.
It was cos of the same thing also..................You thought i had another gf.
Even when you wanted me to remove part of my blog i also did it.
You need to get the part about your dad out of your head that is the cause............

66th Post 4 June 08

One shit over another occurs.
3 times...not from people's influence but from counting.
You keep thinking i have another gf outside, are you nuts?
I have never asked for anything from you but your love if i wanted to compare i wont have said something like this.....
You can buy him hp but i have none???
I am the one who keeps telling you where or what i'm doing but what about you.
Do you think you are the only one who needs a hug, why cant it be you to give it to me?
I have given all i can but i still get back nothing except getting hurt.
I never said you made me bear all the insults but i bear it cos i really want to be together with you.
You are the one who is getting more busy even since last time and i have never blamed you at all, all i did was silenting wait by the side.
You spent the whole night chatting on the phone but i didnt complaint at all even when i cant even hear the tv.
I went outside for 30mins yet you never ask why and in the end you got angry at me, where is the logic in that......did i blame you for anything at all
I have never insulted you and have always stood by your side and all you did was be suspicious of me having another gf.
You can even think i have been lying to you and i wanted revenge, you siao is it.

In all the sms-es the only feeling i get is that you want to break up, dont make it sound like i am wrong when the problem lies in you not having trust.
I have been the person loving you despite all the nonsense and shit but all you are returning to me is hurt.
If you really cant solve your own mental problem please dont come and hurt me.
This is not the first time this type of situation has occured and it will happen again if you dont solve your mental problem.
Honestly i'm quite sick of these type of shit happening.Everytime it hurts me more and deeper.
I'm still not angry at you but i am very hurt by you.